Yesterday after waking up and writing down an interesting dream, I fell into depression. Dealing with what would seem to be a routine or mundane task triggered it. Something turned out not to be what I thought it was. I kept talking to Heather about it, knowing words wouldn’t make me feel any better. For the first few hours of the day I obsessed over this disappointment and the feeling there might be no resolution.
So I sat down, got myself into a reasonably peaceful state of mind with some rose incense, and co-created a resolution to the situation. Co-creation is an authoritative appeal to cooperate with the Universe/Source in an outcome that is beneficial to all involved or who could be affected.
This is a sign that maybe I’m finally grown up enough. Years ago I’d just lay down in a swamp of disappointment and depression and remain there until it started to stain me. Then I’d carry that with me, remaining in the shadows where the sun couldn’t bleach it clean again.
These times when we are most hopeless or depression, no matter how mundane the problem would seem to be, are moments of opportunity. I know that now.
Our voice or intention, even all our energy may feel weak, but it is still within our power to come to an agreement with the Universe and unseen powers to allow the butterflies of spiritual causes and effects go to work for us. I felt terrible, but I wanted peace and a return to joy. So I voiced that in a way specific to the situation that framed my disappointed turned depression.
Today I took it even further. When I woke I realized that I had already set myself up for depression because of how I’d been telling myself ‘No’. I even verbalized a change of plans that I knew would move my life forward simply because the world and its commercial systems had not made the way easy for me. Instead of co-creating the outcome and that I’d see the way clearly, I verbalized “Well, that turned out to not be at all what I thought …” leaving room for self-imposed disillusionment.
We let go of our intention, even our dream, because the way seems difficult or challenging …?
What makes us think it should be easy?
What does make it a lot easier is not straining ourselves or relying on competitive human ambitions, but initiating the creation of a positive outcome with Spirit. It doesn’t matter if you call it prayer and speak to God, or if you call it something else and name it Source. I like to address The One Source of All Love … What matters is staying on track with the intuitive inner passion that gives us purpose and keep the cooperative spirit alive with all the unseen and too often unacknowledged partners in our lives.
Co-create an outcome attached to present circumstances or apparent problems that will be the most beneficial outcome to all those involved or affected. State that my part in creating it be made so clear so that there is no delay and no mistake.
This is how we change the world for good — one thing at a time in cooperation with Spirit.
Today I have renewed this resolve. I still feel a bit of dread when I think of revisiting yesterday’s disappointing issue. So I’m not going to obsess about it, just give it enough space and time to be worked out for the best outcome for all involved.